"Thank you frailty, thank you consequence, thank you, thank you silence." I heard Thank You by Alanis Morrisette the other day and it brought tears to my eyes. In frailty I've found strength and courage, in consequence I've found commitment and responsibility and I am learning to find more in silence than just peacefulness. There is an awareness found in silence that lengthens and relaxes my breath; there is a place I've found inside where once in awhile it is possible to stop the endless thoughts of how I can 'improve' and just be thankful to be.
It's a little less than six weeks until I leave for Europe and my camino. The planning and preparation seem like such a long long time - I'm ready! I have lists for myself and my pack and more importantly, I have a deep sense of purpose and trust that inspite of my lists I will find what I need and what I find probably won't be carried on my back but in my heart. I would be lying if I said that I have no fear; I do, and that fear drives me to walk in the same way as desire does.
"Thank you providence, thank you disillusionment, thank you nothingness, thank you clarity, thank you thank you silence"